What's behind the lies?

Searching for the truth that never

Was, when might decides

The hope I have will die by summer

Help me please help me

I don't want to let it go

Tell me, please tell me

Maybe that will make it so

Why we let it pass?

Things we thought should never happen

Now have happened twice

Now it seems it came to stay so

Help me please help me

I don't want to let it go

Tell me, please tell me

Maybe that will make it so

Where to go from here?

The Earth is small and full and dirty

Running for the hills?

I don't think that will protect me

Help me please help me

I don't want to let it go

Tell me, please tell me

Maybe that will make it so

Will you stay with me?

Or will you find a new religion

Will you want to see

If facts will guide the mad to wisdom

Help me please help me

I don't want to let it go

Tell me, please tell me

Maybe that will make it so

I'm running, running from old mistakes

Like skipping stone on the waves

Hopping from pain and aches

to loss

I'm running, running from what I've been

I wash off the dirt, I'm clean

Time is a faithful stream

I'm ready to cross

I'm running, running in the world of beasts

Dark corners, rain soaked streets

Mind games with claws and teeth

And old shadows

I'm running, running without a plan

I turn where I feel I can

I back track and try again

New alleys and roads

It's too early in the morning

Dark without and within

It's too early to decide

Which sides's to win

I'm running, running as hard as I can

The point, I don't comprehend

How long should I pretend

or care

I'm running, running til out of breath

My chest burns but I can't rest

The only way this ends

Is candle and prayer

It's too early in the morning

Dark without and within

It's too early to decide

Which sides's to win

It's too early in the morning

Dark without and within

It's too early to decide

Which sides's to win

I'm not gonna write a love song to you

There are better ones than I could ever do

Sentimental ballads, kinky fast ones too

So I'm not gonna write a love song to you

I'm not gonna write a love song again

Mistakes were made, I keep the scores and count them

The memories aren't fading, I hope you understand

That I'm not gonna write a love song again

I'm not gonna write a love song I swear

Our relationship is a private affair

Everything we break is for us to repair

I'm not gonna write a love song I swear

The whole world can turn right into dust

Or go straight to hell if it must

You can keep your faith, I lost the trust

I don't try to reason, just adjust

I know the world's unfair, it sucks

But I'm not gonna write a love song cause just

Cassandra, Cassandra, what do you know

You are so certain of what is in store

No haze in foresight, no doubt of the mind

What can you extract, what can you divine?

I see the rich getting fatter by day

I see the rest of us slaving away

I see the pitchforks cutting the night

I see the vengeance, the deathly delight

Cassandra, Cassandra, tell me the truth

How dare you scare me, what's your excuse

What kinds of ghosts of the future you fear

What comes is unsettled, nothing is clear

I see the ice-melt carving the knife

I see the famine, I see the fight

I see us burn what's left of our souls

I see the plague, I see morgues

Cassandra, Cassandra, why do you cry?

Why does it matter who lives or dies?

We are but dust and spit in the end

In tears we crawl, in judgement we stand

I see the towers of great cities fall

I see the bombs, I see it all

I see the masses wither and die

I see the smoke raise, blot out the sky

Cassandra, Cassandra, why do you laugh?

Let me rejoice in your delight.

We all could use a morsel of fun

The hope of the rainbow, the warmth of the sun

I see horrors I can not describe

I see the blood moon rising above

I feel the lunacy swallow me whole

I bear the curse,

I see the worst

I'll be the first

To die

You are my broken record

Back back back to the same

Repeating old conversations

We're together just in name

You are my future mirror

What you are now is what I'll be

And as the silence envelopes you,

It will come for me

I don't even know what I should feel

I won't ever know who you were for real

I know I will never feel whole again

I know I should say that I'm so sorry but I can't

You are my cheshire cat

All I'm left with is your smile

And with it my memories fade

Into the hazy autumn sky

I don't even know what I should feel

I won't ever know who you were for real

I know I will never feel whole again

I know I should say that I'm so sorry but I can't

I don't even know what I should feel

I won't ever know who you were for real

I know I will never feel whole again

I know I should say that I'm so sorry but I can't

It's not what you think

It's not what you bring

It's not what you earn

It's not where you turn

It's not what you think

It's not silver ring

It's not piles of gold

It's not bought or sold

It's not what you think

It's not poison drink

It's not deathly trap

It's not out of step

It's not what you think

It's not tainted pink

It's not rusty chains

It's not love of pain

You don't get strange with age

Just as the lighting change

Your features rearrange

Get sharper in focus

It's not what you think

It's not fleeting fling

It's not till the end

It's not start again

It's not what you think

It's not everything

It's not point of view

IT's not about you

You don't get strange with age

Just as the lighting change

Your features rearrange

Get sharper in focus

We don't get strange with age

Just as the lighting change

These features rearrange

Get sharper in focus

I came to see the mighty king

Whose gentle rule is far to shine

The mighty towers of Babylon

Stood here since the dawn of time

I came to learn his magic ways

His forceful word his wise advise

The mighty towers of Babylon

Are crumbling before my eyes

Everything once stood must fall

The last law of the weeping king

The time has come to build anew

For peace to mourn first war must sing

So I came to see the temple burn

Idols vanish in blood and lust

The mighty tower of Babylon

Once a marvel, now ashes and dust

I never wanted you more than this,

I never needed you more than this,

I never wanted you more than this,

I never needed you more than this,

to come, to come, to come, to come

I never wanted you more before,

I never needed you more before,

I never wanted you more before,

I never needed you more before,

to come, to come, to come, to come

I am fine, there's nothing wrong

I'm almost over now,

I am fine, there's nothing wrong,

It's almost over now, you don't have to

to come, to come, to come, to come

You know, I don't know myself enough

To understand my own depression

You know, I don't know myself enough

To figure out what I would like to happen

You know, I don't think you cared enough

But I'll finish speaking anyway

You know, I don't think you cared enough

You know, I don't think you'd save the day

but come, just come, please come, still come

You know, I don't think you would believe

That I Love you if I told you so

You know, I don't think I would believed

That I survive this year alone

You know, I don't think you cared enough

But I'll finish speaking anyway

You know, I don't think you cared enough

You know, I don't think you'd save the day

but come, just come, please come, still come

I don't know what else to say,

I'm almost over now.

I don't know, let come what may

It's almost over now, you don't have to

to come, to come, to come, to come

I'm alone with a growing feeling

That this not what I signed up for

I'm alone with a growing feeling

That I was a complete fool before

You know, I don't think you cared to know

But this one is just a wicked week

You know, I don't think you cared to know

But today, you really really need

To come, to come, to come, to come

I am shadow

I'm the setting sun

If you knew me,

Look what I've become

I was the wind

I was summer breeze

If you know me

Now I'm fallen leaves

The sand piles up in the bottom half

Small at first down in the hourglass

You lough until the joke's on you

So far no one managed to make it through

I am shadow

I'm the setting sun

If you knew me,

Look what I've become

The mice and the man

The fault in the plan

The hubris of knowing what's hidden

The bluster of words

The eternal curse

The first draft is already written

The don'ts and the dos

The laws and the rules

Collecting dust in the basement

The fox with the plans

For the coup for the hens

The long overdue fence replacement

Don't wield the wand if you don't know the charm

Don't summon daemons if you can't heal the harm

No matter how hard I try not to care

The news brings me back to the fear and despair

The bumps on the head

The tools in the shed

Their sharpness is a major factor

The straws on the back

The creaks and the cracks

The camel needs a chiropractor

The strong gets to chose

The meek tends to lose

The theory holds since forever

The tables when turned

And torches are burned

The pitchforks are sharper than ever

The hive and the mind

The omens the signs

THe foreseeable disaster

The mistakes the crimes

The bullets, the knives

The morning that always comes after

Don't wield the wand if you don't know the charm

Don't summon daemons if you can't heal the harm

No matter how hard I try not to care

The news brings me back to the fear and despair

You're asleep until dawn

You're asleep until dawn

Our Wars have now receded

With the fits that feed it

Your tempest is gone

I watch you forever

I watch you forever

Your soul is in the background

No tears no screams no sound

Just you and me together

The day you were born

When we carried you home

The moment you smiled

Is etched into my heart

The panic of the week

On endless repeat

The path undefined

The fog of the exhausted mind

You are now so peaceful

You are now so peaceful

I wish I knew what comes next

It will take my full strength

To keep loving you

Where is the gold, at the end of the rainbow

Where is the gold, you promised me!

Where is the gold, I waited like trees grow

Where is the gold, my fee?!

Where is the time, I speak in the past tense

Where is the time, draining away

Where is the time, a sorrow remembrance

Where is the time, I say!

Oh, I never thought I have to say this

I never thought I'd count my heart beats

Down to one, down from one to nought

Oh, I never thought I'd loose my patience

I never thought I'd miss the last chance

Reap the wrath, reap the wrath you brought (saw)

Where is the will, a hope for tomorrow

Where is the will, to break the chain

Where is the will, examples to follow

Where is the will, in vain.

Oh, I never thought I have to say this

I never thought I'd count my heart beats

Down to one, down from one to nought

Oh, I never thought I'd loose my patience

I never thought I'd miss the last chance

Reap the wrath, reap the wrath you brought (saw)

I'm the morning, I'm the new beginning

I get up early, I make shadows for you

Your coffee, your all important coffee

Hope for the hopeless, it's true.

I am daylight, I am the heart beat of light

I worm the pavement, make it ready for you

Watch all your steps as you walk down the pathway

I turn the gray sky blue

I get you through,

I make you feel

I count your time

I make the day

I take the blame

I hold you in

And when it's done

I will remain

I still remain

I am the evening, lighting the sky on fire

Spreading new visions of color for you

Just like Chagall you so admire

Moving the best parts in view

Like heroes carved into marble

Eyes bravely fixed on the distance

Like legends nations assemble

Teary eyed over burnt incense

Like those who's stubborn persistence

Still fuels the smoldering ambers

Of what we call human existence

Is how will I be remembered

Like tyrants whose lack of wisdom

Landed their reign in shambles

'Like rulers of long crumbled kingdoms

Found wanted by modern standards

'Like explorers who's brave adventures

Once famed, but lately dismantled

Used now as warning in lectures

Is how will I be remembered

Like footstep on sandy beaches

Only there until the tide comes

'Like Septembers mangos and peaches

Not once remembered by next month

'Like numbers in pedantic grand sums

In ledgers carefully entered

Treated like receipts in car trunks

Is how I will be remembered

My friend, it's folly to ask the question

If your life will ever be pondered

Your lucky if you get a mention

If at all you'll be remembered

I'm afraid the sea people emerging from the haze

I'm afraid the greed we hold will feed the coming blaze

I'm afraid the Spartans coming I can see the smoke

I'm afraid the poplar tree is coming back to vogue

I'm afraid the ghouls of past prepare to storm the gates

I'm afraid the talking heads don't understand the stakes

I'm afraid the crown will fit too well upon the head

I'm afraid the yes men will not feel any regret

I'm afraid the truth will die and with it will die the hope

I'm afraid the false winged lies will envelope the globe

I'm a little kid who trembles when the dusk arrives

But I'm afraid that once it sets our sun will never rise

Here I go, again

Doom scrolling, waiting for the world to end

Can you show me? Show me the plan?

Show me what I need to see but can't

I'm afraid tomorrow and the struggle it demands

I'm afraid the firestorm that envelopes the lands

I'm afraid the children of today will curse our name

I'm afraid no matter what I do it's all the same

Here I am

Counting clouds of autumn rolling in

In my hand

Only I can feel it trembling

The days are

A little bit shorter

A little bit colder

A little bit strange

So little in order

Here we are

Counting days we spent between the sheets

In your eyes

A cold flicker betrays the way you think

You kiss is

A little bit shorter

A little bit colder

A little bit strange

So little and over

Here I go

Counting all the ways that time was lost

Hard to know

Will you be there adding up the cost

My dreams are

A little bit shorter

A little bit colder

A little bit strange

Oh so little and over

I am now

A little bit frazzled

A little bit hopeless

A little too late

Running and loose breath

Never in focus

Never in center

Never the star

Forever pretender

I sit in the corner

Forgot how to breathe

Under the waterline

Way out to sea

I sit in the corner

Steady and still

The skin defines the outline

I need to fill

And We go around and 'round

And come back once again

We pretend progress but the

Facts betray the sentiment

It's not even sadness

It's not lack of joy

It's that I don't remember

How to feel at all

It's not that it hurts

It's not that I care

It's not in the moment

It's everywhere

And We go around and 'round

And come back once again

We pretend progress but the

Facts betray the sentiment

I still remember

How moves form a laugh

I still remember

That photograph

I still remember

The fun of it all

I still remember

But I can't recall

And We go around and 'round

And come back once again

We pretend progress but the

Facts betray the sentiment

You don't have to dive if you don't want to dive

If the water seems murky or the board is high

However you choose the way you decide

I don't pass judgement, just stay by your side

You don't have to go if you don't want to go

If the storm outside is worse then before

If the monsters you hide just scream for more

You can rest here I'll lock the door

You are my future, you are my pride,

You are my darling, you are my child,

You can rest with me, you don't have to hide

You don't have to change, you are what you are

You don't have to stay if you don't want to stay

If the commitment seems like a ball and chain

If the vistas of unknowns call your name

I won't lay down myself in your lane

You don't have to care if you don't want to care

Don't worry nothing's broken, there's nothing to repair

You have to find your own way, I won't always be there

I understand it, I won't despair

There's nothing more to say my dear, it's over

The wine is spoiled our vows grew mold, I'm sober

The mornings come and go

The feeling stays and so

There's nothing more to say until October

The glass has never been half full, it's empty

The drinks we had the lies we shared a plenty

A life built over clay

The grind of everyday

Either way, hindsight is twenty twenty

Two lost souls,

Confined to the same old fish bowl

Circling and hoping for an exit

Two sharp teeth

And lots of anger down beneath

There's no chance for you and me to fix it

So here we go the court date's getting closer

Each to their own way when comes October

Two neat piles of past

No future that would last

Let's get it done and find another shoulder

Am I mature enough

Am I mature enough

Am I mature enough to have you?

Am I selfless enough

Am I selfless enough

Am I selfless enough to raise you?

You keep your silence

And I don't have the words

It feels like we are

On two ends of the universe

I search for meaning

I search for clues to sort

I search in vain for the

Cipher to the thoughts you hold

We are like two moons

In endless dance around

Far in the distance

Yet forces hold us strongly bound

The space between us

Stretches every day

Devoid of structure

That emotion can not penetrate

Will I see clear enough

Will I see clear enough

Will I see clear enough to see you?

Will I be strong enough

Will I be strong enough

Will I be strong enough to love you?

I know you're hurting

Yet I still delay

It's in the silence

It's in the things we cannot say

Nerves for the nervous

Fail again the test

Retreat to old ways

And recreate our loneliness

Will you be strong enough

Will you be strong enough

Will you be strong enough

Will you be strong enough

Will you be strong enough

Breathe in the breeze

The spring scented rain

Forget the pain

The moment to seize

Is the moment you have

No turning back

Sing with the seas

The song of the waves

Of echoing caves

The time measured means

Of rhythm and rhyme

Both pleasure and crime

Far from the buzz, Far from the show

Fade into haze, Fade into snow

Cool down the flame, enjoy the flow

Be what you are, breathe, let it go

Dream with the stream

Of fall afternoons

Of rapids and dunes

Of times when it seemed

The riddle was cracked

And the river ahead

Far from the buzz, Far from the show

Fade into haze, Fade into snow

Cool down the flame, enjoy the flow

Be what you are, breathe, let it go